WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?

So I have not blogged all week because I have been away at a nursing conference.
Now let me just say this.
I loved school.
I loved buying new notebooks and pens.
I loved getting the textbooks on the first day.
I loved taking notes, and rewriting them as I studied.
Yes, boys and girls, I was the straight A geek.
In college I took it a little to the extreme.
I had to get 100% on all my nursing exams plus the extra credit question.
Nothing else would have been good enough.
Needless to say, I graduated with high honors, with a 4.00 GPA from nursing school.
(Come on, now don't hate.)
I probably, at that time in my life, was as close to having a coronary than any other time in my life, past, present and future.
I was obsessed.
I see that now.
When I took my nursing state boards back in 1999, I walked out of the test site in Boston, sat on the curb, and sobbed, and sobbed, and sobbed.
Of course, I knew I had failed.
(As I had with each school exam, and we know how that turned out.)
For 3 weeks, I waited for the results in the mail.
When they finally arrived, I sat in my car for 30 minutes at the post office, crying, unable to open the envelope.
Needless to say, I passed.
SO, about the conference.
High Risk Maternal Newborn Nursing Certification.
This is not required for my job.
Just thought to myself, what a great class.
(The test was optional.)
But you know me.
Yeah, had to sign up for the test as well.
$619.00 at stake.
If I pass, the hospital where I work will reimburse me the $619, give me a one-time $200.00 bonus, and give me an extra 38 cents/hr in my pay.
The class was phenomenal. I could not have asked for a better 3 days of information.
UNBELIEVABLE.
The test was this morning.
Now all I am going to say is, If you don't know the answer to the first question, how good can that be?
Although I remember saying the same thing after the boards, and I passed those.
They send the results out in 21 business days.
I guess I just have to wait and see.
Don't sweat the small stuff, right?
I think I'm now in need of a couple days of rest.
Cause this was no vacation.
But NO, back to work tonight.
No rest for the weary.

Oh yeah, I'm going back to college to get my Bachelor's degree in nursing, and in October I think I'm going to Atlantic City to take the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit
2 day conference which is followed by a certification test.
I guess I'm just a glutton for punishment when it comes to school.